...Well, I don't know what came over me but thinking about the things she said has finally made me too angry. I deleted her from my facebook and likely wont sign on my other DA account unless miraculously we make up somehow. I do miss her a lot already, possibly hurting myself even more by running away from her.
There is a part of me that hates her for ruining my life though, I wasted so much time and effort for nothing. No one has ever made me feel so pathetic and useless as she does. Lately before deleting her I was annoyed with being ignored, and her growing immature personality. Then she became only concerned with games and money plus decided she wanted someone two to four years older than me.
To make things even more annoying is broken internet and keyboard. Plus the stress of not having a job also.

So much stress and depression I can't deal with. With that, I don't know anymore if I love her or hate her but this account will likely come to a close as she is fading away from my life. As for me I don't know if I can make it further either. I want to be hopeful and say I'll find someone better and life will work out but I doubt it. I just feel like dying more and more.